You're the reason Lord

Lord you are the reson for my joy and happiness.  I sing your praise for you give me all I need. The reason I rise in the morning and when I lie down to sleep I am at ease. You have set me free. I enter you gates with thanksgiving and your courts with praise. Your name is holy above all. You are my reason for doing my best even in the small things. May I be found acceptable in your sight.

Remember if you are having a bad day or a good one give him praise for he is great and kind. Think on how great your GOD is. Remember he loves you and you are his child. Praising Jesus can put everything in perspective.

Failed again

Though we fail today if we still breathe we have a chance to repent and start anew. So do not be dismayed when you have failed for success is a series of failing and learning from the failure.

Perhaps today we did not achieve anything but realize that we are foolish and unwise. Ask GOD for wisdom and beleive in faith that he will provide understanding.

So find the way that GOD has provided and walk. Don't look back. If you trip again, stand up again and continue to walk. It will be daunting to keep seeing yourself fail but keep faith and keep hope with you at all times.

Many times we forgive others when they have failed but forget to forgive ourselves when we do.  Forgive yourself. It is okay. You are not too far gone that GOD  can't save you. He loves you and wants you to be his children.

Do not be scared of his discipline.  A good father always disciplines his beloved child.

Pray, today I have fallen Lord. Forgive me. Teach me the better way to live. You are so wonderful. Your love endures forever. Amen.

The story

I believe that once upon a time I said to GOD that life didn't make a very good story. Where was the magic? The fantasy? The steampunk and the romance? Where was the waking up to all your dreams coming true?

For the longest time I hated my life. I self medicated in every aspect to escape the hell that was Jwana's life. For as much as I had going for me, I had an equal amount of the opposites.

But I don't feel the same anymore. My opposition has become my opportunities.  My weaknesses have become my strength. The things that brought me down have become my stepping stones.

This is typical of the love of GOD and how he works in a pitiful life. The way I found Him may not be typical of others but I found Him nonetheless. It is in this knowledge that I have come to let GOD out of the box that we typically put Him in.

Every relationship with Him will be different and unique. None more important or more valuable than another. He is no respector of persons. He loves us all.

My point? Let go. Let go of the rules and regulations.  He says repent, believe, confess and overcome sin. Love the Lord your GOD above all. GOD will change your life, if you let Him do it his way.

The story can be amazing. It may not be how you think it should be or when. But He will make it wonderful.

Torment

My mind torments me
A deep hurt I cannot see
Unceasingly, it beats me down

Down under the dark cloud
No reason to be proud
Cowardly, covered in a shroud

Shrouded in turmoil
Wasting away in toil
Drudgery, in a snakes coil

Coil destroyed by the breath of the son
Confess that you are the only one
Thankfully, it has already been done

Done and ready to put away sin
Resisting the devil who is within
Courageously, proclaiming it is written

We all fall...

My how the lowly have fallen. It has been a tough couple of months.  With the move to Alaska and all that entails I have tried to be my best but more often than not, my best isn't enough. As soon as I think I have it all together I fall apart.

And not just fall apart, I completely crash down. It hurts. I don't want to move. Life feels to heavy to go on. I don't want to live my life. I don't want to be who I am. Why am I me?  I question my purpose and the purpose 9f GOD for making such a miserable life.

I fell hard again and over the same things. I realize that it was a test. One that I failed and have failed again. But in my failure I find strength.  I find a way out for the next test. I find that I was relying too much on my own strength , when I should have been relying on GOD'S.
So I made my confession to him and set my mind to his word. I know that in realizing I failed, I can begin again and start a new. Today is a new day and filled with his mercy and grace.

So in essence, I have not failed but grown.  However small the growth is still growth.  So I give thanks for the lesson. Even though it hurts I can find joy in knowing these things. In knowing He loves me, He gives me grace daily and I can grow from this.

So no matter what you are going through, no matter what causes you to fall, get up hold fast to you confession and proclaim him as your Lord and Savior.  He will respond.