My how the lowly have fallen. It has been a tough couple of months. With the move to Alaska and all that entails I have tried to be my best but more often than not, my best isn't enough. As soon as I think I have it all together I fall apart.
And not just fall apart, I completely crash down. It hurts. I don't want to move. Life feels to heavy to go on. I don't want to live my life. I don't want to be who I am. Why am I me? I question my purpose and the purpose 9f GOD for making such a miserable life.
I fell hard again and over the same things. I realize that it was a test. One that I failed and have failed again. But in my failure I find strength. I find a way out for the next test. I find that I was relying too much on my own strength , when I should have been relying on GOD'S.
So I made my confession to him and set my mind to his word. I know that in realizing I failed, I can begin again and start a new. Today is a new day and filled with his mercy and grace.
So in essence, I have not failed but grown. However small the growth is still growth. So I give thanks for the lesson. Even though it hurts I can find joy in knowing these things. In knowing He loves me, He gives me grace daily and I can grow from this.
So no matter what you are going through, no matter what causes you to fall, get up hold fast to you confession and proclaim him as your Lord and Savior. He will respond.
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